thoughts of the day.

Does anyone ACTUALLY give a shit?

I mean, honestly. Sometimes I feel so alone it's not even funny. Like everyone is two sided. Like everything I've ever known, ever loved, is a lie.

What if it is, though? What if it's just a big dream?

What if everything is just... nothing?

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You had a bad day.

Okay, now let's make you feel better.

You're on a planet. A huge planet, compared to you. This planet is all made up of gaseous substances - even you. You're just a life form, made with carbon, oxygen, and a bunch of other chemicals thrown in at random spots.

This planet is in a neighbourhood with 7 other planets. Some of them are ten times bigger. Some are much much smaller. And these planets are miles and miles away. Light years away.

Then you have the sun. This fricken huge ball of fire that basically controls your life. Whether you live or die. One day this sun, which is a star, will plode and kill us all.

Then, think of this. This sun is MASSIVE. Think of something a million - no, a BILLION times bigger.

There are stars out there that size.

THEN, you have that hubble deep field picture, where all those tiny specs of light are galaxies in there own. There could be planets just like ours, where there are people just like us. Having problems in their personal lives, just like us. Having misunderstandings. Feuds with loved ones.

But, of course - millions and billions and trillions of light years away. And more.

It's insane to think about what's really out there. There could be even more, for all we know. Something so huge that we can't even wrap our minds around. Something amazing.

So, in relation to all this, we're ... nothing. Nothing at all. Another spec of light; spec of color. Another spec of gas, just going about our business.

Re-reading that, I sound like a fucking pessimist. I'm sorry if I've made your day worst. I'm really just trying to balance out my own feelings, to be honest.

*intensely dramatic sigh*